Friends

Quick pointless geekery: a few days ago, I got back into the groove of Final Fantasy X. (Besides its heavily male-pleasing sequel, FFX is the only FF game I've played.) Like, WAY back into the groove, where I may play for up to two or so hours at a time. I'm simply adding to a game I began as... a sophomore in high school, if I'm not mistaken. 154 hours, baby!

I tried dodging lightning bolts to attain items for Lulu's ultimate weapon. I was caffeinated on a Starbucks Mocha Espresso Double Shot (what a mouthful) and felt ready to conquer this damn side-mission once and for all. (Hung out with Alex and Kile yesterday! Will update more soooon.)

After about twenty minutes, I GOT STRUCK. I cursed and hoped that somehow I'd made it to 200 consecutive dodges.

I checked the log book at the Thunder Plains Travel Agency (this sounds so real, yes?) and it read 136 bolts.

WHYYYY?!

I gave up playing for the night.

I've taken notes on all that I've done over my break, and will eventually update with a MASSIVE TL;DR post under a cut. Whee!

I have been pretty down lately, so I think I am over compensating in the bedroom because of it. Poor Ricky is getting hounded. I would LOVE to have some sex toys to spice up things, but Ricky has no intrest at all, which kinda bums me out. He doesn't want anything that can be inserted into my vagina. There has been few times he will play with my ass, and I kinda like it, I don't think I can take on his cock, but a finger is nice....lol I really should have put this in a cut. Ah well. So anyways, back on to the topic of toys, so I am thinking I can handle those beginer anal beads. Might buy some and try em out, they are only like $20. I think it would make it easier for him too because I have a big ass, and it is hard for him to finger and fuck me at the same time, so I don't think he would object to the beads.. tmi I know.

I really dont know where this post is going. I am just rambling because I am bored. I dont have much to update about, my life has been sooo dull besides the lots and lots of sex I have been having haha.

OH! I might have a job, it sounds very promising. One of Ricky's friends is buying a kiosk at the mall and needs help with it. I was supposed to meet up with her yesterday to discuss hours and have a little interview, but she had a family emergency, found out later today that her sister in law died. So once things settle down with that we will meet up. Looking forward to working, I mean its not the most ideal job, but I havent worked in like 9 months and it is killing. It will be good to just get out there and do SOMETHING and the money would be nice.

I have been feeling like shit lately. Really need to get on the health kick, for reals this time! Starting tomorrow! Fo sho...after I eat this bag of gummy bears nom nom nom!

I'm reading jPod right now and I swear, I am offically fucking in love with Douglas Coupland. This is a terrific book, definitely the funniest I've read in ages. The references he keeps making to himself are the greatest; "why are we drinking Zima?" "It seems like something characters in a Douglas Coupland novel would drink". Hahaha, oh Coupland, you funny bitch.

I had an interview today (or yesterday rather... haven't really slept yet) at Toronto Rehab. Unfortunately it's all the way and King and Dufferin (pretty fucking far), it took me a whole 2 and a half hours to get there today. Stupid google maps told me that it would be an 8 minute walk from Ossington station to the building. It took me one hour+. THANKS GOOGLE MAPS, YOU SUCK.

Christmas was good. I was actually shocked how strong I was. I figured I would be an emo mess, but I was pretty good. Ricky got me a bunch of movies, a massage table, and some winter clothes. His parents got me boots and we both got Dj Hero from them.

The tuesday after christmas, Ricky had his friends christmas party. I drove him and a few people to the place it was at, then picked them up and took them to the bar afterwards. On the way home from the bar I got pulled over and the cop lady made me do a breathalyzer. I passed with a .022. One of the scariest moments of my life but I can laugh about it now.

His friends have been coming over alot recently. I don't mind, I kinda like being a host and they aren't very messy. It is usually just a bunch of empty bottles and cans we have to clean up. Nothing major. We had a New Years party here, that was a lot of fun. New Years Day we went to Ricky's grandmas and had a family dinner there. I was hungover but made it. They came over on Saturday for hockey and then again last night. Sounds like they may be back on Tuesday for the Canada vs USA game.

Talked to Ricky about the whole name change thing and he just keeps telling me to keep mine. It is alot easier. So I decided that I will keep it, unless we have children, then I will change it.

It has been snowing alot lately, I have to go grocery shopping and I am not looking forward to it. My life can't stop because of the weather though so I gotta suck it up and get used to it.

On top of having one of the coolest weekends in recent memory thanks to Corey and Jesse, I finally told Sam how I feel and cut the remaining ties with her. I don't think anyone understands how good I feel about finally telling her all of this. I was miserable because of her for so long and never really said anything negative to her. To get all of this off of my chest and let her know I don't want any contact with her and her leaving me was one of the best things that has ever happened to me feels pretty fucking amazing.

That being said, I'm very tired of girls who don't understand what real life is. If you're over 20 and your Daddy pays for your car, car insurance, gas, college, food, your bank overdrafts, and everything else in your life without any real limits, I probably don't like you. Sucks I don't know any single girls who wont ask me why I don't have a flat screen. Or why I drive a car that's over 10 years old. Or why I still wear the same clothes I did in high school. Or why I know how to make some of the most ghetto food none of you (besides Ryan Green) have probably ever imagined. I'm working to change those parts of my life, but I don't want a girl that looks down on me because I don't have cash right now. If shit hits the fan in the future (which for 90% of us it will) I want to know the girl I'm with is down with eating bologna or ramen for a while and wont talk shit about it. I think my main problem is it's hard to find someone that grew up like I did and isn't a shithead. Ramblerambleramble. Fuck you livejournal I do what I want.

It's the good, the bad,
the house i furnish
The crystal clear sea,
the sound I worship
The rush of the city,
the calm of the Outback
The film called Life
where my heart is the soundtrack

It's that lucky streak
without no warning
It's the memory of cartoons
on Saturday morning
It's that classic culture
that connects the country
Through raw energy
that reflects we're hungry
It's that timeless feeling
that i get on stage
It's those government bills
that I'll never pay
It's that fun I have
free-styling with my mates
My little getaway
that only music can create